Avoidance

I have avoided writing about my personal situation regarding the shelter-in-place ordinance caused by the COVID-19 virus up until now.  My hesitation was based on the idea that, well, everyone else is already doing so.  What can I contribute that might be construed by a reader as original?  Today the answer came to me.

A year and a half ago I caught my wife of 31 years cheating on me.  Red handed.  I was devastated.  The pertinent points for this essay are: we cautiously discussed mending the marriage; we saw a couples counselor once (he sucked); and I had made frequent attempts to cajole my wife into talking about the issues.  She  always volleyed back to me the same mantra-  “I’m not ready”.  After two months of anguished, silent isolation in my own home (she had left, staying with various friends), I made some decisions.

I learned to survive through meditation.  I began my Buddhist studies in earnest.  And I decided to move away.  Two thousand miles away.

Now I am isolated again in a part of the country I had always hoped to see before I kick.  Alone.  Still meditating.  Still studying.  Still healing.

Now, playing the final holes of the back nine of my life, I keep up with the news.  I watch as neighbors diligently adhere to social distancing in the hope that we as a global community can slow and eventually stop this virus from spreading.  I watch as others ignore the pleas of the CDC and local government in that regard.  I watch as families, health workers, grocery store employees and small business owners find new ways to be resilient.  It is all humbling to me.

I no longer have my home companion, my girlfriend from college to confide in.  To this day she does not speak to me, reach out to me in any way.  I reciprocate her silence.  My new home and my new community are the loose gravel I hike, always on the lookout for new, more secure footholds.  In the meantime I often meditate in silence with sincere admiration for the human global population.  I have learned to have a compassionate heart for myself.  This ultimately leads to outgoing compassion for all who struggle here on this beautiful gift we call earth.  This includes you.

Please remember to breathe first.  Use the two part breath to move you into the next.  Compassion comes naturally on the heels of calm reflection.  Be kind and be safe my kindred travellers.  W.

“What Can I Say” – Mary Oliver

I heard Jack Kornfield use this poem at the end of a mindfullness talk. It resonated with me. I hope it resonates for you. ~TH~

Nooks & Crannies - ’cus they’re perfect for a book lover

What can I say that I have not said before?
So I’ll say it again.
The leaf has a song in it.
Stone is the face of patience.
Inside the river there is an unfinishable story
and you are somewhere in it
and it will never end until all ends.

Take your busy heart to the art museum and the
chamber of commerce
but take it also to the forest.
The song you heard singing in the leaf when you
were a child
is singing still.
I am of years lived, so far, seventy-four,
and the leaf is singing still.

~ “What Can I Say” from Swan by Mary Oliver ~


I love this bit:

“Take your busy heart to the art museum and the
chamber of commerce
but take it also to the forest.

To quote Miss Oliver both the spiritual and the life of this world need…

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Navigate To What You Desire

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Greetings!  This is a quick message for my readers and followers of this blog.  First of all, THANK YOU!

Just a heads up- I have added categories here for BUDDHISM and MEDITATION.  I realize many of my followers are here for the typewriter posts which is great.  I don’t wish to lose readership, so if you’re only interested in a particular category where I post you can simply use the CATEGORIES option on my site and scroll to your interest.  Or better yet…

I use the aggregator FEEDLY for all the blogs I follow.  If you don’t use an aggregator you might want to try it out.  It is a godsend in keeping your online reading organized. The great thing is, if you only want to populate your feed of a particular blog with posts from a specific category (like say typewriters), you can simply navigate to that category, copy the link, then paste the link into the ADD CONTENT area of the aggregator.  Click on FOLLOW – boom, done!

Don’t worry, all of my categories are still viable.  I just didn’t want to start another blog for those topics; at least, not yet.  I need another blog right now like I need another typewriter (I don’t).

If you have any questions or comments about using an aggregator, feel free to contact me in the comment section of this post.  Hugs to all you readers and again, thank you.  ~Tom~